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How do I wrap it up with a bow this time?
In years past, I once felt the need to conclude my years by looking back at all of my
accomplishments and successes. Time has changed, however.
Now, what I mainly see is a whole lot of blessings. For this is what 2014 taught me ~
it showed me just how truly blessed I am with the important stuff in life. Namely, regenerative relationships. And, it's a foundation that I am rooting you within.
I spent this Christmas season mainly tending to you and your needs as well as, with you in a pouch, painting the plaster cast Devi and your papa made of my upper torso during my 9th month of pregnancy. It's a fitting way to close out this year, seeing as how you were seeded within my womb somewhere around this time last year.
It's been three months since your birth, and I am awed by your growth and development. Already you are so much bigger than you were just a mere season ago. I have enjoyed every moment of your unfolding ~ watching you discover your hands and fingers (you're still in process where this is concerned), hearing you coo and start to "talk" (you and your father have a very chatty relationship), and witnessing your beautiful smile and the way your eyes light up, too. I love the depth of our eye gazing when I'm breastfeeding you (and, oh, how I love breastfeeding you!) and especially when I tend to your needs ~ you look at me in a way that exudes trust and security.
I adore the way your tiny hands paw at my breasts, the softness of your body and the scent of your skin. You are sweet by nature and strong in stature. I seek to document each moment we share because, as too many parents convey, this time now goes by all too quickly and, with so little sleep to go round, this time now also eventually becomes a blur. But I don't want it to bee blurred. I see it all so clearly, so I do my best to put down in words a love that is beeyond definition.
As for the approaching new year, I am going to take the lesson that you, my dear son, taught me. For nine months and most of 2014, you were a mystery. I didn't know what you would look like or how life would bee until you arrived. Yet, here you are and you're beeyond gorgeous. Meanwhile, life is amazing. So, I'm going to continue to set my intentions and water them along the way as I also endeavor to maintain the mystery by not over-planning/thinking/analyzing but rather by just trusting that what comes will bee perfect ~ just like you. ;)
