& i guess i'm struggling to show up fully to this love that burns bright inside of me because the sting of others' rejection does hurt - i.e. bee-ing kicked out of the Art Center; so-and-so's complete self-absorption; & etc. yet, i feel that even this, too, is all par for course - that our most primal, Earth mother is a benevolent & abundant goddess who just gives, generously, even as we continue to take from her at an alarming rate. & i witness my own behavior - my own take, take, taking - and i don't know if we will all balance ourselves once again but i know that my desire to give back is deeply rooted in this place.
