"5 of SWORDS
DEFEAT,"
the card reads.
And I surrender to what is.
Exhausted, emotionally and physically,
I've barely broken the tip of this geyser.
As cavernously empty as I feel, there is a lusciousness
here, too. "I am not used to feeling this," my mind chews,
as I honor how vital change and diversity are.
And all the thoughts that are wanting to arise to try to make "sense" of this -
"He did that;" "She did this"; "I didn't do this;" "I should have said that;" etc etc -
don't add up.
Rather, it's simply that I've been pushing pretty hard.
"JUST BEE."
I say it all the time.
I need to take my own Medicine.
I crawl into life with girls
and enjoy another evening (and morning!) watching
children's tales.
Every time, the poignant themes - of true love and loyalty,
of brotherhood and peace, of black sheeps churning the shit of conditioning and culture into nutritious soil, of outcasts reclaiming their rightful place, of humans remembering the
sacredness of all life and how, with every reflection our eyes take in, we see ourselves. The question that always remains is:
HOW WOULD YOU BEEHAVE?
(How do you beehave?)
Yesterday, a sistar wanted to press her developing beelief about making different choices in order to produce an outcome, such as "Don't have sex with him - not after the 1st date, or the 2nd date or even the 3rd. If you want a committed relationship, wait."
And, I'm like, "Wait, really? Because I just want to give LOVE, no matter what, 'cuz who knows what is to come?" Sex isn't LOVE just as LOVE isn't Sex. It's a formality - a basic, human necessity that requires honest conversation. Withholding something because One wants something else is a transaction." Let's talk about SEX, baby!
Last night, it was the film "Spirited Away," in which Toshiro finds herself taken into an Underworld dominated by the evil witch UBaba where she has to save not just her parents, but the human race, from its own piggish ways and where she is divinely helped by the water spirit - and boy - Haku. Their's is a LOVE story that transcends time - a tale in which a young maiden is forced to confront her fears and keep pushing the edges of her own courage in order to emerge back out into the light of day.
This morning, it was a Viking cartoon, "How to Train Your Dragon," in which the protaganist, and black sheep, Odin beefriends his culture's most feared enemy - the dragon - and, along the way, reminds his people of the life-saving traits of COMPASSION, LOVE and TRUE BRAVERY, even when his own father, the strongest warrior in the land, disowns him and works against him.
Then, there was "Azure et Asmar," a French Moroccan film, about two men - one Muslim and poor, the other white and rich - raised as brothers by a wet nurse from North Africa. They share the same goal - to marry the Gin Fairy and free their people in the process. Along the way, they are given the same love and resources to achieve their individual dream, yet along the risk-filled and dangerous path they learn the true meaning of LOVE by helping each other, being loyal to one another's well being, never leaving each other beehind and always putting the other first.
These sweet films are ALL EMBODIED EXAMPLES OF LIVES WELL SPENT, as well as potent examples of SEX and its natural off spring ~ of Life Force in Action, of Co-Creation and Birth, of Channeling this most powerful energy in a specific direction for the benefit of ALL.
